Whenever I handle my ex boss company finance documents, my ex boss would tell me to keep what I see in strictest confidence. Then, I realised that my previous company involved embezzlement. I struggled for weeks deciding if I should quit. :( It is a career whereby I could earn tons of money and enjoy all the finest things in life.
It was like money and conscience VS God.
I kept praying to God for an answer. Then, God revealed the answer to me through so many different ways. I asked myself if continuing working here would please God. It was definitely against my conscience to work in a company like this. It is against my conviction. In The Ten Commandments, it states that “You shall not steal.” (Exodus 20:15). In addition, “Be shepherds of God’s flock that is under your care, serving as overseers – not because you must, but because you are willing, as God wants you to be; not greedy for money, but eager to serve; not lording it over those entrusted to you, but being examples to the flock. And when the Chief Shepherd appears, you will receive the crown of glory that will never fade away.” (1 Peter 5:2-4)
Finally, I took up the courage to quit three weeks ago. :)
I am jobless since then. I did not panic or have any intention to find a job. God kept telling me to spend my time to study His words intensely for now. I am glad that I listened to His words. It was so fruitful because every minute and second, it was about God. The bible verses that I memorised were used to help to strengthen me for the next few days. Amazing! God had it all planned out. :)
In the meantime, my mum kept pressuring me to get a job. However, God’s word “For I know the plans I have for you.” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11) kept coming into my mind. I was totally calm about being jobless because I trusted and have faith in God to bring me wherever He leads to me despite my mum pressurising. But what troubles me most was that I couldn’t explain to my parent that I was follow what God told me to.
As days goes by, when I see my family, relatives or friends, they keep asking me about my job hunt etc. It was hard to even tell some of them that I was following what God told me to. The pressure I received from was immense. Some of them started to judge me. I was upset. Slowly, I started to have doubts in God’s plan. My thoughts started to waver if I should follow what God has told me to. :(
It was like man VS God.
I kept praying. Then, I recalled what Kenny Gan quoted: “Be still, and know that I am God;” (Psalm 46:10). Yes, I shouldn’t care about how men judge me. It is God who judges us on the day of judgement. God kept telling to me be patient and continue to trust Him because He knows what is best for me.
My perseverance to hang on to God words was tested. Out of the blue, Ruth wrote a card to me quoting: “Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” (James 1:2-4)
It is incredible how God strengthen my faith in Him. ^^
One day, I came across a company that is hiring people (after my unsuccessful interview being a teacher because the principal is a not a Christian). God was telling me to apply for this job. Being obedient to Him, I did that. I went through two interviews because the competition to get this job was really strong. The company had to call a lot of my lecturers and my past employers as my character referees. Yes, getting into this company is so not easy.
Suddenly, I felt that my energy was drained and my not-so-smooth job hunt. I was so tired after all the pressure that people have been giving me. I didn’t know following what God told me to can be so exhausting. I was lost and in despair that I cried out the Lord. :(
The next day (which was three days ago), the company called me to go for the third interview yesterday. I was excited but was quite reluctant too. It’s like this is the first time I had to go for interviews for three times and not knowing if I would be hired. To be honest, I was worried that there might have no Christian there.
I kept praying and received encouragement from God. When I reached the company, I was extremely elated to know that I was selected to be hired! What makes me happier is that my Associate Director is a Christian. Thank God! My friend told me that only people with quality get to be employed by this high end company. I am absolutely fortunate to work in this company. Thank God! :D
It can be strenuous to follow what God told you to do when man discouraged and not understand your faith in God. The process of following God is taxing beyond your imagination. However, the reward that you receive in the end will be so much better! Persevere and hang on to your faith in God. Your reward is great in heaven. ^_^
I remembered Aunty Cecilia once said: “Be stubborn in following the Lord.” The good thing about being stubborn is perseverance. Will any one of you will too?
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